“…the life I am living is not the same as the life that wants to live in me….I sometimes catch a glimpse of my true life, a life hidden like the river beneath the ice. And…I wonder: What am I meant to do? Who am I meant to be?” (Parker Palmer, Let Your Life Speak, p. 2)
My son will start his senior year in high school in the fall and lots of well-meaning adults will ask him and his friends, “What do you want to do when you grow up? What do you want to be?” My son and his friends think, “How should I know.”
I commiserate with his stress over these questions. At my age, I am still pondering them. I keep searching for my Truth, my Path.
As Parker asks, “Who am I meant to be?” Does this feel like a struggle because we are trying to figure these big questions out while living life: doing laundry, living, food shopping, praying, loving, hurting, getting confused and clear again? Or, could it also be that on this holy journey we (God and I) keep peeling back the layers of ourselves, revealing a new me each time, one that will again try to figure out what the Truth is.
There have been times in my life when I knew I was doing what I was supposed to do at that moment in time. I didn’t suppose that this was IT, as if that was what I was supposed to do until my last breath. So there has been wiggle room, space to pray and ponder and wonder. What’s next? At times there’s a restlessness that comes over me and I know, change is coming. “Show me, God. What am I to do next?”
I heard a talk the other day and the speaker asked several probing questions:
What are you most afraid of?
What would you do if fear was NOT a factor?
What would you do if you only had a year to live?
What gives you the most joy?
What gets you really excited?
When are you most passionate?
What comes to you in prayer?
If we follow that and know that we are given what we need to know, we’ll be on our way, whether we realize it or not!
Blessings on the journey and here’s to a little more clarity!
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